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I’ll Do ANYTHING, If ONLY…

Have you ever promised God that you would do ANYTHING….that’s ANYTHING God wanted…if you could just SEE Him for yourself?  After all, just to know that…there IS a God would be life-changing, yes?  You would see God, immediately know what you were supposed to do next, and you (happily) get right on it!  Sound about right?

It sounds so easy……

Mid-teens….BEGGING for this same thing…for two years (forever, at that age).  With unfaltering belief…….patiently waiting…..  Then, WHAM…my car is suddenly many feet shorter….the truck hadn’t yielded.

The good friend in my passenger seat runs in to the nearest phone to call for help.  Meanwhile, I “come to”, get out, track him down…..his eyes get as big as saucers, when he sees me!  “You were DEAD!”, he says.  There’s only one question that should come after that……”WHAT??”, I say.  “YOU W-E-R-E  D-E-A-D”, he repeats it.  I’m dazed, and he’s goofy, I figure.  My reply, “Well I’m NOT DEAD NOW…..!”.  Then, back to matters at hand.

MONTHS later, in seconds, all this…information….POURED into my head.  It turns out to have been the recollection of what they now call a “near death experience”.  I had/have details NOBODY could just …KNOW.

So what?  So…what to do with all this…stuff?  What else, tell family and friends.  Naturally…. they’ll shoot you down.  What is this supposed to be accomplishing anyway?  How about just waiting….until there is a history of ….sanity….to point to.  It’s a plan.

Forty-plus years later….that plan won’t work!  Such talk at this age just means you’re starting to “lose your marbles”!?  That’s just GREAT…..

The goal, and the promise?  To tell every person alive all the….GOOD news….way before the internet existed, nigh, impossible.

Now “possible”…..what to do?  What to say?  ….It is NOT easy……

 

 

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…but.

I’m at the Life Review.  (You’ll get your chance.)  In mere MOMENTS, every single act, and thought I EVER did and had was all around me, as if happening for the first time!  And yet, the entire thing happened so FAST, it was over before my brain could register it.  But I remembered it all!

As if that wasn’t strange enough, I saw things as if I was on the receiving end of things I had said and done.  To me it seemed like the effects were amplified somewhat.  It’s that or…some of the things I had said…cut to the bone?  Or were those “recipients” just (too) “sensative”?  …No, that was not the answer.

I would come to a place, in this…thought stealing review, that I would feel I needed to…defend my actions.  Over and over I would begin by saying, “yeah, but”…and that would be the end of the moment, moving on to the next.  After this had occured several times, I realized that my “yeah, but” “explanation” carried no weight.  It wasn’t that it was a “lie”, more like…you should have known better, AND WOULD HAVE, if truly coming from a place of love!

There it is…the “afterlife’s” standards for admission, and now you know, when your turn comes, that “but.” is always the end of the sentence.